Why Do We Compare Ourselves To Others ?

Hey guys I warn you I am about to go in reflective maybe slight rant mode but you liked the last one so lets crack on

                            

So I was watching some vlogs on you tube and there was comment left of on this rather well known you tubers vlog. That was basicly saying   how she could not  help but feel a little jealous of her life but how she could also see how there probably things about her life she might envy .

This made me think how may times do you look at some body's life and I think I want that why cant I have that . I have done it I did it a lot when I was in collage I looked at my sister and thought she has a car a full time job a pony I want that . Now I have my car and full time job but I don't talk to my sister any more . It makes me wonder why was I so jealous was it because I was going though such a hard time .

Why do we feel the need to compare are selves to every one else the internet makes it worse because you can watch people life . There where so may replies to that comment say the truest comment why do we do this . All I will say is at least this person does see that its not all that she see it go me think about the post I wrote the other week some many people start blogging you tube for the money because they see these vlogs and I want that lifestyle but they expect it over night now look at this blog nearly 3 years old and I couldn't do this as my job I earn nothing from doing this it is just my hobby. Any way I think I have gone on enough so will see you in my next post .

What are your thoughts on this ? 

bye guys 

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Why I Took The Break

Hey guys I am back and I wanted to update you and explain some stuff to you so lets crack on

As  you will have noticed I took a rather long break from this blog this wasnt planned but I just felt so much pressure from my self mainly to try and put out content and because of this nothing was coming to me I was just staring at a blanc screen hoping something would come . So I took a break and as soon as I  took the pressure off I could write again so much so I have already written all my posts for this month. While I am on the subject my blogging days will be monday and thursday and noon . 

I was stuck in rut feeling unmotivated as I watched my twitter feed and discovered new bloggers not just to me but new to the community have only had there blog a matter of months and where doing far better than me . I know I should be happy but after nearly 3 years of pouring my heart and soul in to this blog I just lost it all . I need a break to just be me and not worry about anything else just step away from the community and not have any distractions .

Truth be told I was having a bit blogging doubt a bit of rough time where all I kept saying was why I am doing this  no one would bother if you didn't . I soon realised I was having a moment had a talk to mu self I said you do this as hobbie you enjoy you have put so much effort in don't give up now. so here i am back and feeling refreshed . 

If you have a blog do have times of doubt? 

bye guys

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#Tittle Tattle Thursday : Things I Have Learnt From Blogging

Hey guys so today post is going to be about things I have learnt in the 2 and half years I have been blogging . 

I started this blog on 11/12/12 because I was bored going though a bad time and thought this would be good way to take my self away from the situation at the time . My first  post was a foundation review which to be honest isn't very good and I now hate that foundation but you live and you learn if you  wish to see what I  mean I will link it for you . So now I have finished babbling on about how this all came about let me tell you what I have learnt . 

The first thing I have learnt through blogging is what makes good product or bad product I know this sounds strange .But before  I started doing this I  would simply use whatever foundation my eldest sister used that was a bad decision as even now she wear foundation that is about 4 shades too dark for her and doesn't where anything else what ? But though blogging and trying different products reading and watching reviews I have learnt what makes some thing right for me. 

The second thing  I have learnt is little bit about web design how to certain thing and how certain bits of code work. Now fairy enough blogger is not rocket science and I am not sure I could say the same if I was using word press . However there are certain things I have learnt about web design that have definitely come in handy .  It so rewarding as well when you get blog looking the way you want it makes you proud of it and yourself .

The third thing I have learnt through blogging is a little bit about photography this is some thing you are bound to learn as you get to know what settings do what what makes products look best. I can honestly say this is an on going process you are constantly learning as you go though cameras and use different lenses ect. I have to say this maybe one of my favourite bit about blogging I could spend hours fiddling around with my camera to get the prefect picture however time does not always allow for this but it is so fun.

The fourth thing is confidence this is not something you learn but that you gain because you learn that your not alone . If you have been with me while you will know I have done posts about my anxiety / panic disorder . It took a lot to put them out there but the response was amazing and made realise that most of the time no matter what it is your never alone . That definitely  gives you an increase in confidence to there are people out there that can relate to you just lifts a weight from your mind. 

The fifth and finial thing because this post is getting uber long is I absolutely love it and will not be giving it up any time soon my blog. Its my sanctuary my get away I have discovered so many things though this like the planner community . I really enjoy planning out my post and preparing them it favourite part in some ways as well as interacting you you guys obviously . 

So yeah I am going wrap up this long post and say thank you to all of you that read this blog because if wasn't for you there would be no point in me doing it . Let me know below what have learnt through your hobbies . 

Do you blog? What have you learnt ? 

bye guys

xoxoxoxoxoxox

#Tittle Tattle Thursday

Hey guys so what a week it has been so this is going to be life update so if you dont want to  know then feel free to skip this post but I  will also be telling why there was not a blog post on monday . 

So why was there no blog post on Monday is for two reasons one I started my new job and I had said on twitter that it was going to be on Tuesday instead . The second reason is because my laptop died on me after having it nearly two years the battery died and just refused to charge back up . There was no video on Monday for much the same reason but I was also so the fact I  just had no motivation to film or even get ready to film so that's why that never happened. 

Now I know what you all thinking how did your first day go not good I am currently looking  for another job as I do not feel that environment is for me . So yes that how that went  I didn't feel like I would learn anything there and I was made to feel like nuance. I have a couple of job interviews this week so hopefully it wont be too long .  

So that's pretty much all I wanted to cover in this post if you want to know what is going to be happening on the blog I will link my last post .  Also let me know if you would like a desk area tour kind of blog post as I recently done it all up .Also let me know any other requests you have and let  me know how your week has been . One more thing do you guys have any ideas for a picture for this type of tittle tattle Thursdays posts let me if you do .

bye guys 

oxoxoxoxoxoxo

p.s guys I got the job I went for 

#TittleTattleThursday : Planner Tour

Hey guys so today I am gong to do a little planner update in this post I told you I had been obsessed with watching planner videos .I told you that this had inspired me to dig out had an old filofax but it was to small well welcome to my new planner.

I got this form an esty seller called ninj&ninj I will leave you the link here . The reason I picked this planner is because it has a month to view as well as week to view . Although saying that I don't use the month to view as much as thought I would . The reason I like having a planner is one the only way I remember anything  is if  I write it down and two it a creative out a hobbie that's not on the internet . so let dive in and have a look inside

So this is the month to view as you can this is not really used too much but I just put on this when my bills go out work shifts ect. I also like to but I little saying in corner to spur me on though out the month . I have some little to do lists but as you will see in a second these are just general things I need to do I have more detailed to do list on me week view . so lets look at that

So as you can see this is where all the action happens this where I plan my blog posts when I am going flim and any appointments I my have . The notes section as you can see is where my to do list lives this is generally stuff I need to do in the week if I have anything I need to do that day  I will make a little to do list on the day . The stickers I use for blog planning ,filming ect are from esty I will link the seller for those interested . I also have post it on this page this is full of goals and blog post ideas but not every week has this and I also have notebook full of blog post and video ideas . although feel free to add to the list in the comments or tweet me @horsefashbeauty on twitter .

 So I think I have rambled on long enough so I will let you all go but let me know how do you organised yourself? Do you have planner ? do use your phone ? let me know .

bye guys
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p.s sorry the lighting in these pics arent very good 

#Tittle Tattle Thurday

Hey guys so I have decided to keep these on Thursday I may change my mind but for the minute they are staying on a Thursday . So today I thought I would share some of my favourite you tube channels and blogs to watch and read for my chatty post this week  .

So this idea actually came to me while catching with some of my favourites and I thought why not share because while I do watch/read bigger channels and blogs. I  also like to support the small communities so in no order lets crack on . 

My first person I have to mention is mammaful zoe I love this women I have emailed her with problems commented on her videos and she never fails to get back to me . She also has a blog and she is truly some one who I know I can trust if she tells me something is rubbish I will trust her on that she is very honest and I love her ooddles and ooddles. 

Next up is kammi from beautybookblog.com now she hasn't blogged in ages but when she does I love it but life gets in the way some times as it does with most of us but I  would still say go have look. Her blog is beautiful and post very in depth and detailed. 

Next up on my list has to be maddie from the blog qworter life crisis I just love her writting style it feels like she is actually talking to you  her blog as been running just over year but I love her and you tube videos too . 

Now a big you tuber who you have probably heard of and that is vivianna does make up this girl and I are just on the same page the only way we differ is she runs and don't run any where if you saw me run you would totally understand why . She is another one I just love her writing style and I love her weekly vlogs . She may be a big you tuber but she still comes across as real person and still very grounded .

I think that is all my beauty related people for vlogs which are like my favourite things to watch I love Ellie and Jared , The schuerman show , daily bumps , sacconejolys  and hannah maggs weekly vlogs . 

I dunno if the post was a good idea or not but I figured you might be interested to know who I keep up  in the blogging and you tube world . If you think there is any one I should check out leave them below and will see next time. 

bye guys

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

# Tittle Tattle Thursday

Hey guys so today I am going to a of blog update for you all because I am thinking of moving the post to Wednesday . 

So currently we make up mondays ,tittle tattle thursday and FOTD friday but have this on wednesday but what can I  call it . I like tittle tattle Thursday as is an original name I thought of calling mid week musings but I feel like that is done. Is it possible to keep the name and just move it to Wednesday ? 

Is there anything you guys would like to see on this channel my video day will still be sunday but I wont necessary have blog post to go with it but it will always be linked in the mondays post . Is any there  thing you would like to see leave me comments below a short post this week but i really just to ask about the blog so let me know .

bye guys
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#TittleTattleThursday

Hey guy so today I am not going babble about my life but I am going to talk to you about new discovery a rabbit hole I have fallen down and I have become a bit obsessed .

Planners OMG this is a whole you tube community of organisational enthusiasts and I love it but once you have dipped your toe in the water it is very hard not get pulled in. I have spent the past week watching what's in my planner videos and how to create your inserts for your planner and how to decorate your planner  the lists goes on . I have even dug out my old filofax although now to small so I have new one on the way . Which how this week my blog as been so consistent because I have lay on my desk open on the week so I can see what I need to do . 

This is not really new thing as when in school my planner was my best friend and I used make new covers for it to cover up the boring school one . Decorate it with highlighters gel pens I used colour code my timetable was uber organised and for this I was relentlessly teased. But now I have job bills to pay and blog to maintain I miss my super organised self as I forget so much stuff . I cant wait for this new planner to come and I am hoping this is will help and benefit you guys and help me stick to my posting days . 

When I have had my new planner a while and if you would like I will do a blog post on it if you don't want it that fine . But with me wanting to go back to training I thought now would be a good time to start organising my self so when I have coursework to do I am not forgetting everything else .  

I hope you enjoyed this post its a bit different form my normal Tittle Tattle Thursdays but a change is good once in a while . Tell me below do have secret planner obsession ? I would love to know 

bye guys
oxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

#TittleTattleThursday

Hey guys and once again I have left you a week but I have my reasons of which I shall explain now so dont be mad you know I am inconsistent.

picture from here 

Basicly this week I have lacked motivation and the reason for this is not because I dont love my blog and all those that read . It is just because I have felt like poo and the reason for that is cluster headaches/migraine now any of you that suffer with migraine will know my pain and appreciate the last thing you want to do is sit in front of computer screen. For those it just headache what she on about imagine the worst headache you have ever had then combine that with the worst motion sickness and dizziness you have ever had you get the picture. 

I am going to take the time to give you little life update in September I have to decided to go back to college and do an access to nursing course . I have been looking for jobs in care and I am currently just waiting to hear back. But my plan is to find a care job do that up until September to gain some experience and then in September do my course and try and stay in care maybe as evening worker . This is something I really want to do but I know it will be challenge for me with my anxiety but I am determined I will do this. I want to help others and this is what I have wanted to do since I was about 17 but everyone said you wont like and I was stupid enough to listen but i am going to do it and no one will stop me  this time 

So yes that is my little update for you all this week and I will tell you more as I know and take you with on my journey . I have started uploading on my channel again the first one went up on Sunday as it as a I am back kind think but I think this weeks video will be the 5 minute makeup challenge so keep you eye peeled for that as that will be up Sunday .

bye guys 

oxoxoxoxoxox

#Tittle Tattle Thursdays

Hey guys so I had a thought the other day about going back to blogging 5 days a week but i ask is that too much.

                            

I had a post for every day of the week in my head and the same sort of posts would happen each week. .But then ask my self  would any one want to read a post from me that often or would I just be wasting my time . I am better blogging a bit less because then it keeps it fresh or I am looking at it the wrong way?  

I know there are certain bloggers that blog everyday sometimes twice day and more power to them but I sometimes think are not just putting too much pressure on to your self . Does it not all get a bit samey that way. So my question to you today is can you ever blog too much because surely you would run out of steam eventually .

So that is for today I know it is a shorter than normal but it is truly what I have been thinking about recently tell me what you think .

bye guys

oxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

#Tittle Tattle Thursdays

Hey guys so I am going to be starting a new series called Tittle Tattle Thursday and basicly this is just going to be my chatty post for the week. This is to break them up bit because they can have a tendency to take over because I you know I  love to talk.  This  was written before I started posting on my blog again. 

picture from here 

So I have failed with my three blog posts week I am sorry but I keep try to get things on track and then keep falling off.I don't why this keeps happening it just does but in my heart of hearts I know there must be a reason for this . So what will happen now you ask well I simply don't know as I sit here at quarter past 12 on Saturday night/sunday morning I have wind howling round my house and hale pounding a my window . Yet I sit and question why I some thing I love so much as become such hard work is this a phase or is it a sign that my love of blogging has come to an end . Do you remember the days I used blog every day I loved it and still do but yet some how I seem to let my life get in the way . Its like a friends mum said me you have the time you just don't use it efficiently but why cant I do this I ask my self.

I keep saying I love to start doing my you tube again even it was just weekend vlogs but the motivation fails very time and then I ask would anyone even watch them? So I guest my question to you guys is what do I do and how do I motivate my self to use my time more effectively. Would like me to post videos on my channel again what blog posts would like .I need inspiration and motivation so please leave me you tips tricks and suggestions .

I know all my blog post have been a bit reflective and a suppose a little deep recently  but they do say if you don't what to blog about blog about what is happening at the time so that's what I have done. 

bye guys 

 oxoxoxoxoxoxoxo